Chapter 2: No music to my ears

Is it only me having ears this sensitive or are the Dutch really way louder than the rest of the world?

Being so private-space concerned with putting the bag at the seat next to them in public transport, how about the noise interfering your space? It’s definitely more difficult to define the norm , but not less disturbing when it’s off the limits.

You read a book, or listen to the music, do your work, or just think about something and that’s when a horrible sound reaches you.. first you think it might be a scream of a wounded animal… look around- ah no, just someone laughing at a joke..  what did I think about/work on/read again?  The iPhone headphones are no help- unless you make it so loud that it hurts.

Restaurants are another “weak” spot. Forget about having the conversation while having a diner- you will be hardly able to over scream the background noise. That’s why I prefer more expensive places- maybe the public there is older but at least I can enjoy the dinner! 🙂

P.S. nothing personal, but being an expat and observing a different  culture I have to make some generalizations (aka “why aren’t  you drinking vodka?!” )

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Vivaldi concert in a beautiful church in Venice

Monday challenges

Oh my morning started with the alarm ringing in the dark and sounds of rain in the background..apparently my dinner the night before was too salty so I was so so happy I had the patches!

I went for the cheapest option, but still feel like they work!  I like to keep them in the fridge for extra refreshing effect

My initial plan for the night was to go to the gym, but now only thinking of getting out to the cold, dark and wet street makes me shiver!

I guess tea and Internet it is. Unless there is so  magic trick of getting outside without suffering🤔

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I know something about sexy homewear

Saturday night

In so many places all the parties are happening on Fridays, which for me is really challenging-tired after a working week, getting home from the office and doing hair and make up..not working that well for me. That’s why every time  I see a Saturday event I feel the urge to go!

Yesterday there was an Internations party in Amsterdam.I can never miss an opportunity to dress up in the country of dirty sneakers! 20s dress code- what not to love about this 😍

For the occasion  I bought a wonder dress (zara, price less than a dinner out, I consider it the deal of the month 🙂 ))

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With my friend Maike; prosecco makes everythino a  Wonderland!

We have this little joke: last drink is always excessive, but how do you know which one is the last one😅 but no headache today, so I was a good girl!

How was your Saturday guys?? Many cocktails consumed?

I don’t care!

This morning I had a couple spare minutes at the station, and instead of going for pastry, I went to the book shop (food for the brain!). This made my day: 


Haven’t read the book, but looks like I’m excelling  at this skill! You know that Asian wisdom “be smart enough to change what you can change, to accept what you cannot change, and to distinguish one from the other”. That’s the whole point. A lot of worries we have are over things we cannot control or change. Look at all the Facebook freaking out about the trump election(most even not living in the US). Unless you get your b*tt of the couch and go on the street to protest, all your jokes and comments and complains are just a waist of energy. The election has happened, deal with it already!
The same about a ton of other things. “Oh dear, seems like my colleagues don’t like me”. “The global warming is coming”. “The weather is terrible during the weekend”. “What else is your head occupied with”
If you stop worrying you will have so much more energy to spend on something more meaningful. To help with that, you need to know what to do in case “it” happens. Imagine the worst situation and think your steps through. Most of the times it’s not as bad as it seems when you just worry;)


Couldn’t come up  with a better title :))

Yesterday I made 15000 by only walking  around Utrecht! And people keep asking me why I don’t cycle;)

Yesterday was super sunny day and I was out quite early, busy treasure hunting (you know those days right after pay day)).

Utrecht is full of nice little shops(I don’t mean clothes). So I spent quite some euros in cheese shop, tea shop, my favourite Dille&Camille for dark chocolate with orange, the Body shop for best ever butters, and Stach for guilty pleasures to go with planned later movie afternoon.

Movie afternoon was at my friend’s place who lives in such a wonderful area! Do you believe that every place has  certain energy? (Btw my previous apartment was near the cemetery:) )

Next one, I will do my best to have close to Niewegracht! It feels so calm and solid there.oh why it’s so expensive to rent here


The movie we watched was miss Peregrine’s home for peculiar children..


what to say, it’s definitely one of the weirdest movies I’ve ever seen. Thanks God they added some modern music in the end, otherwise I would become totally moody! But it was really very good, and it’s not only my love for fairy tales talking, might be my admiration of Eva Green though.

And the snacks for the movie, really Stach is just a Wonderland for these things
And the new canal by night on the way back home


Chapter 1. The bag.

The clock is ticking!

…Surprisingly so, the clock that starts ticking for Russian women after 20y.o is not what’s bothering me today 🙂

I was thinking about something else: couple days ago I discovered that in your phone battery setting you can see how much time you spend in different apps. That’s sort of shameful and embarrassing to admit but in the last 24 hours I spent 3h on Fb& Instagram together. In the last 7 days it’s an even higher % of my time. How comes I have all this time??  Or, even worse, what is that thing I could have been doing instead?

Well, some of this time is the time I spend commuting. Sometimes I find something kinda useful, like articles or news or useful tips.

But I keep wondering that if I spend this time learning a language, doing the exercise(although I still do workout couple times a week); or doing a course, or reading a book? I am sure in the long term the gains would be incredible.

On the other hand, I still consider my lifestyle quite active. I work full-time, do salsa once a week, gym 2-3 times, and my social calendar is quite full. Plus  in house activities like talking to family in Skype, cooking, cleaning up, body and facial care.

Won’t adding a couple hours of some activity on top of all of these lead to a some kind of burnout? Especially in the winter months when many people including myself are noticing lower energy levels.

So my idea for now: get something that might help with energy (my mum recommends ginseng ) and see if I can add something more meaningful than scrolling through Instagram to my day. And let’s see if this works!

not sure if tea works as well as pills. Pics are from Holland&Barrett


I woke up like this


On lazy Saturday afternoon, when Utrecht was covered in that 1cm of snow, I was sitting with my friend and her boyfriend in a bar eating some deep fried stuff (Bitterballen are love) and drinking wine.

The conversation was about my 10-minute online dating experience ( aka the gift of finding something wrong with any picture). And then we went on talking about the  power/importance of the looks in the first impression.

And here comes the thunder in the blue sky. The friend’s boyfriend goes like: “Well, I think a girl in sneakers, in a casual shirt, with her hair in a bun and a beer in her hand looks very sexy”. My bitterball gets stuck in the throat: “What?!”

The next day I kept thinking about the sneakers-bun-beer image, and thought it actually can be sexy.. but(!! and this is crucial ) with quite some work on the background.

I agree it’s not always about the high heels, heavy make up and the dress. However, it’s always about being..polished maybe?

Your feet are soft just like a baby, cuticles doesn’t resemble the lifestyle of a homeless, nail polish covers the whole nail (and not like “oh, I should have removed it a week ago”). No hair on the legs is allowed, the skin on the elbows should be soft. The hair should be clean, soft and shine, smelling like a bouquet of fresh flowers in spring.

The face has this healthy glow as if you never got tired in your whole life. Super smooth lips and groomed eyebrows (aka not resembling a warm or a caterpillar).

The body is toned. The clothes fits perfectly. And the sneakers are clean and kinda new.

And ok, if you have all of this that look can be sexy.

P.S. The more I live in the Netherlands, the more I love the Youtubers (quite some are Russian) who keep talking about hair/facials/make up/body. In Russia, no matter how much money you have or how much time you have, there is a bare minimum that is considered to be something just like brushing your teeth. Here the minimum is literally “I woke up like this” and my Russian soul(and eyes) is missing being around women who look “taken care of”  🙂

Welcome 2017!

How did you welcome the new year?

For the first time I hosted a New Years party! And it was the first party  in my new home. For that reason I was a bit worried about everything going smoothly and being fun. Lucky me, my worries were for nothing 😊 We got a ton of food, from all over the world: Russian salad(my love), indian samosas, Dutch oliebollen, Belgian chocolate mousse(it was so delicious everybody had to eat it with eyes closed)). And lots of Spanish, Italian and French sparkling drinks! A good party is when there are more empty bottles than there were guests))

We have this silly saying ‘you spend the year the way you see braced it’. So 2017 is waiting for me in an open silk dress, with perfect hair, dancing like crazy to 90s hits.

4am after party selfie
Nobody  starved 😅